Invincibility

You've either got it, or you don't.

I thought I had it, but I don't.

I want it...

INVINCIBILITY.

Sure, I was short of breath for two weeks and joked about having PEs.

hahaha...

"Screw You" said life!

"The Drs don't know what they are talking about" I told Jason just 3 days ago, in regards to diagnosing me with Gestational Diabetes.

"Screw You" says my glucometer, with readings in the 180s.

I've been doing my Lovenox shots myself in my love handles for the past few weeks, trying to give my belly time to heal.  Things were going beautifully... not a sign of injections anywhere on the love handles and the lumps and bruises were fading on my belly. 

"Screw You" says my body as I woke up this morning with 3 large bruises on my sides... back to letting Jason stick me in my belly.

Aaarggg... some days just aren't your days, I guess!

I've been feeling real well the past few weeks.  This pregnancy as a whole has been fantastic... I've had a few symptoms that stick around for a few days, but then I'm back to feeling good!  In the beginning, I was sad for a few weeks, which brought on the pregnancy test.  Then I was short of breath, but the clots quickly resolved.  Then I had a lot of pelvic pressure during the week of running back and forth to Hospice, which resolved as soon as life slowed down.  A few weeks ago I started with night time reflux, which is now controlled by Prevacid.  Last week I had two days of Sciatica coming and going, but now it's gone.  Now I'm just learning how to control my sugars with diet. I will say that I'm starting to get tired again, but I am 30 weeks now, so I'm not surprised.  

Jim Jim is doing well... growing and VERY active. I don't know if it's a boy thing or that it's just my fourth pregnancy so I am more in tuned, but I started feeling him around week 14, I think. You can see my belly flutter when he kicks.  His 3D ultrasound pics have him looking like Jackson's twin, except Jason says he has a bigger nose. 

At 35 weeks, I'll change from Lovenox to SQ Heparin, so I'll be ready for surgery on June 10th.  If I go into labor before that, I'll have to have general anesthesia, since it won't be safe for an epidural. (Man, do Drs have a lot to think about and take into consideration when doing what they do!!!).  I was going to donate my own blood, in case I bleed out too much, but now my high risk OB says "no" because I'd have to be off of my blood thinners for 2 days.  She says there is plenty of options to control the bleeding, before I would need a transfusion.  Jason offered to donate, but that could eventually screw up kidney donation for Jackson many-many years from now.  

BTW... Jackson does seem to have some sort of INVINCIBILITY.  For all of his gloomy prognosises, he is doing fantastic.  He had a Endoscopy Scope with biopsies last month.  He handled the medical personnel, the anesthesia, and the scope itself great.  One biopsy came back questionable for Celiacs, but after four blood sticks, his blood work showed to antibodies for Celiacs.  YAY!!!  So, other than some controlled reflux, it all looks good.  Amen for good news, though it would have been nice to find a reason for his aversion to food.  Thank God for Pediasure!